“Doctors
called it nervous exhaustion.
My physical energy was at a
low ebb and my outlook on everything
was negative.”
Eventually,
with rest and the help of psychologists,
friends and family, he was able
to “rebuild his personal foundation,”
he said.
A
National Institutes of Health
Web site states that a person
has major depression when exhibiting
for more than two weeks at least
five symptoms, which may include
feelings of hopelessness, fatigue,
dramatic appetite change, sleep
difficulties, agitation, and
withdrawal from
activities. Its exact cause
isn’t known. Major depression
affects perhaps 18 million Americans
annually, and increases a person’s
suicide risk.
As
for Bambery, his depression
didn’t go away, and in 1983
he was hospitalized a third
time. Emotionally “down” times
we all experience seemed to
cross over the line with him
into full‑blown depression
when he stopped fighting it.
“It
was devastating and consuming,”
he said. “I was believing I
had no value and all I remembered
were my mistakes. Depression
sucks you into a deep, dark
hole.
It’s
a vortex pulling you in.”
The
turnaround point came each time
when he hit bottom and began
the process of getting “honest”
with himself. “When pulling
out of it, I was hanging on,”
he said, “and finally starting
to accept one good thought or
thing I’ve done that I knew
had been worthwhile.”
In
2001, he became seriously depressed
again. Staying at home for days,
he was immobile, and “could
hardly think to get across the
room,” he said. He felt weak
and defenseless, and was angry
with himself.
At
his lowest point, close friends
showed up at his front door
and referred him to a psychologist.
Until then he had usually hid
and lied about his depression.
By his own words, he had become
a good
actor.
He
said, “If you have faith and
hope, there’s always that tiny
light at the end of the tunnel.
I never lost that light. I knew
that somehow, some way, I could
turn this around and climb out,
but also that I couldn’t do
it alone.”
For
more, see danieljvance.com
or nimh.nih.gov.